WOEBEGONE

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I  gave her my heart, now it's in a billion              pieces

I don't know but every since then everything has been opaque 

Now I sit and wonder, alot of questions in my mind

When did I become so numb

When did I loose my self 

When did I become so lost

When did I become so cold

Where is the person that I know 

I feel paralyzed, I no longer feel things 

That I know I should feel 

Where is the real me, I'm lost and kills me 

I stood there and felt how everything I believed in fade away

I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside

But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why

I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it

Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen

My heart is now in so much pain.

My tears are falling like pouring rain.

I can no longer sleep a full night.

I can no longer fight.

What happened to forever?

I guess forever happened in your mind, never

She left, and my feelings left too 

I'm looking for my self , I feel so lost 

I'll keep looking,I'll keep search for the real me 

Do you know a life of loneliness and one filled with pain,

living a life with nothing to gain,

Surrounded by darkness, overwhelmed with shame.

A life without peace but I don't have you to blame.

I blame my self I sat home and loved you and believed you

look at me now, PARALYZED




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