COLD and LOST

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Told her I was broken, forever lonely but she didn't listen 

Said she loves me, said she will help me get back my feelings 

It's day 335 and I still don't feel a thing 

well I guess I should just tell, Told her we should meet 

Told her she should move on, I just can't do this 

We've been seeing almost a year, it's just no working

Said she loves me, that she'll be patient and she'll keep waiting

But she doesn't understand, the feelings aren't growing 

I'm tired of the fake smiles, I wanna stop pretending

The love is one-sided, it's only coming from your direction

said her love us enough for the both of us, that's her perception

I cannot continue faking, this is all deception 

We sat quiet for a while, then Daimonds filled her eyes 

"Oh My" where are my emotions, I cannot lie 

Couldn't feel a thing, even with the tears in her eyes 

Men I've gone so cold, frozen from the inside

Told her they is someone who could show you the love you deserve

Who'd tell you the words, and admire your curves 

My mind's like a mansion with words written on all the walls

Still yet I'm so silent, I cannot find the words 

So it's the end of us she said and still got no words 

She's Walking away, say something, but I could find no words

What is wrong with me!, I guess I'm just numb 

No feeling, no emotions, it seems that how it is 

I'm still looking , still searching 

Maybe I might feel something but maybe then

I might just remain like this till the end. 



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