Sorry

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I'm sorry...


... for not giving you the space you wanted

... for not letting go when I should have

... for getting mad about little things that don't matter anymore

... for not taking your word for things

... for listening to what other people have said

... for being an ass to you and a jerk at times

... for jumping to conclusions before finding out the truth

... for being too pushy and invading your personal space

... for all the stupid mistakes I made that pushed you away

... for ending up complicating things

... for being difficult to be around

... for making you feel bad

... for not being able to be your friend

... for doing all the things that lost your trust in me


You had such a bad year and all the things you have had to go through and everything else I may have left out.


I will never forget you. I really needed someone like you around during the time that I met you, exactly last year October 3. It's crazy to think that. I was going through a lot of emotional trauma during that period of time and being around a friend like you made me forget about all the bad stuff.


I had never met anyone like you before, I had never really met a friend who was a sweet as you were, a girl who was so unique and fun to be around and as beautiful as you were... that is why I fell so hard and so quickly, but I really regret not getting to know you real well, moving too fast, and letting our friendship bloom.


It doesn't really make a lot of sense when I think back on everything. I guess I just didn't know how to handle things and I couldn't let go so easily.



I'm so very sorry.


I'm not saying I am completely at fault, but I'm admitting my wrong doing. It may not mean anything to you now, but it means a lot to me for you to know this.


I know I can't do anything more to change your mind, and I don't expect you to, but at least you really know how I feel, and I feel better for letting it out.


I wish nothing but the best for you, I hope you find someone who gets you and treats you with the respect you deserve. I really hope you find out what it is you really want, and know that eventually you will.

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