POEMS

I'm sorry... ... for not giving you the space you wanted ... for not letting go when I should have ... for getting mad about little things that don't matter anymore ... for not taking your word for things ... for listening to what other people have said ... for being an ass to you and a jerk at times ... for jumping to conclusions before finding out the truth ... for being too pushy and invading your personal space ... for all the stupid mistakes I made that pushed you away ... for ending up complicating things ... for being difficult to be around ... for making you feel bad ... for not being able to be your friend ... for doing all the things that lost your trust in me You had such a bad year and all the things you have had to go through and everything else I may have left out. I will never forget you. I really needed someone like you around during the time that I met you, exactly last year October 3. It's crazy to think that. I was going through a lot of emotional trauma ...

  Don't tell me who to be,I'm the best of me  What's with y'all tryna tell me who to be  Don't think that I make decisions based on that you think  I don't care about about most of y'all thoughts, I can think  Don't think am gonna change my self to be what you said I should be  When I went through the hurt, you weren't there with me  Now you're coming to dictate who you think I should be I need help?, Well that's so sad to see  by my self?, Well do not feel sad for me  Here's a little mesange from me  Whatever you think about me!, It doesn't bother me I'm not living life perfectly, I can't find the definition of a perfect me  I am still searching and looking for a better me  I'm smiling?, Am I crying?, Does it look like I'm lonely? Am I faking?, Or does the look on my face feel deceiving? Well maybe it's deception, caused by my perception  Don't come and be pointing for me your directions  I know where I'm...

  Thoughts of you surround me. You’re the beating of my heart. The love you give defines me. My life is no longer dark. You give your hand so sweetly. I am lost if you’re away. You have me so completely. I cherish you night and day. Without your breath, I cannot live. I need your lips on mine. Nothing at all I wouldn’t give. I’ll take nothing and be fine. For in your arms I’m always home, So happy and so proud. Never a day you’ll feel alone, And I’ll yell it out so loud. You came into my life like a star And filled my heart with joy And gave me love. Unknowingly to you, You gave me a shoulder to cry on You were my pillar when I was falling You were my strength when I felt low With your smile, you made my living on earth worthwhile Your cuteness knows no bounds, your beauty has no limit, I look at you and gasp in awe, wondering how you’re mine, you take my breath away my dear, for you, I’ll walk the line

Funny when I remember how I stare at you from afar  I have a lot of good memories, a lot of them  Like the day you passed me by  Like your birthday ,I was happier than you were Like Every time you make me angry and I don't react  I'm actually afraid of what I'll do or say when I'm angry  Last time I got angry, it was ugly, I never want it to happen again,  I remember when you were mad at me and you wouldn't talk and I got angry and I left.  I had to hold my heart cause every cell in my body wanted to come back to you  I still wonder why you talk to me and face the ground  Like what are you looking for, you know you're pretty, You're prettier than you think you're I'm actually using the love I have for you to fight the bad memories that hunt me  You don't know how precious you're to me, you're like the sun I'm your earth,  I revolve around you and you shine on me your eyes are my stars,  you're my heartbeat and you keep on pumpi...

  There's no one who can take your place. The way you smile, the way you look, the way you always know what I am thinking about, the way you gave me a hug when I needed one, the way you cry, laugh, listen and love. You share your hopes and dreams and help me shared mine; you touch my life and there will never be another you. You have touched me more profoundly than I ever thought you could touch me. Listen, my dear, to the soft serenade from my heart that carries my promise to you, my tender embrace of infinite love, a pledge of never to be apart. This is my winter love of you, that nothing can erase... I love to see you smile And I love knowing that I caused that smile I love to see you happy And I love knowing that I caused that happiness. I love to look into your beautiful eyes And I love the way I fall into them I love it when you hold my hand ... Thank you for the moments you make it clear that you are proud of me. There are no words I could use to describe the love we share. ...

  you say you're sad, you cannot help but sink down, down, down. but just know I'll be there. no matter how low when the stars burn out and all we have left is the rain we shared, or when you feel like everyone, everything, is gone and you are all alone, I'll be there. When you are lonely Or when you need a friend, Just call my name. I'll be there for you. When your heart's broken Or there's no sign of love, Just call my name. I'll be there for you. And I know I’m not as strong as before And maybe now I’m a little weak But my love for you still stands as strong Even when this world turns bleak You've given me a reason to live and to fight So I’ll live and I’ll fight for you For I know together, even though we've suffered In the end we will pull through.

  Alot of words to portray one feeling  The feeling that one day parents will leave  The feeling of happy memories of a friend you miss The feeling you get when your lover's bout to leave  The feeling you get when your plans not working The feeling of being stabbed and betrayed  No don't be confused with hurt and pain  Hit by a car,cuts,bruises that's pain  The unphysical pain, yes that's hurt  I had a friend I knew at a very young age  He didn't come around to play one day  Taken to hospital for chest pains  I went to see sharp at noon So I asked if there's anything I can do  To make him feel more comfortable   I was feeling hurt,He was feeling pains I won't forget the things he said  Everytime I started to feel regrets  That I should be grateful that I still have breath Deep deep down inside in lungs  I'd smile and he'll smile along  The only way I know that I'm alive is because things hurt ...

I was thinking, how can I help my friend So I wrote, to pass a message to my friend  Sometimes reality flashes and breaks our spirit Our world so happy dims in less than a minute So many broken hearts that can't be mended  Because for a long while they were left unattended When life is getting you down, and you need a little hope. Look deep down inside yourself, and you'll find the way to cope. If you can't find a way to cope,call on me,a friend to lean on  Hurts that I can't sing to your hearing "I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on" When the clouds cover the sky, and the rain begins to pour from a height. When it gets all dark outside, And you just wish you could stay at home and hide. Call on me,so I'll try and implant on your face a smile Then a silver lining suddenly forms around the cloud, And almost immediately the quite turns out from the loud. The sun peeks right through and the rainbow makes its entrance It is smiling through hea...

  This is a poem I wrote  To someone I owe  Written to clear my depth In a bid to clear my head  To a friend I've never seen  Your presence I've felt so deep  The light you shone my way Even from a distance far away My demons fled and you gave me peace  You calmed the storming seas inside of me  You gave me what I've longed for so long  As if to say you knew it all  You gave me listening ears even in my dreams  And cleaned me wounds even the ones so deep A therapist she said she is But an angel she is to me  Even with her broken soul  I could feel a heart so low  I wish I could show you all the love you deserve To show what you deserve, I don't even know how to start  You've been more than a friend to me  A thousand thanks you deserve from me   from where to start I do not know  But this I'll say from the words I know  "A beautiful soul you own" Maybe we can't be friends forever  Bu...

  I dream of lake so beautiful  Surrounded With with Lilies and Roses Where the Forest animals follow by the rules of the truce  In it's depts are pebbles and pearls  Beautiful shiny colorful stones at the rare A lake filled with waters so pure so clean  Rainbow over the sky so real  To the taste so refreshing and reviving An environment so tranquil and comforting Birds chirping so beautiful to the hearing Warm breeze and wind flowing The fragrance of the flowers so amazing The sight from a distance so charming  A place filled with peace and happiness so pleasing Only to open my eyes and realize I'm dreaming I'll hope that one day I'll see in real the lake so amazing.

  your smile makes me smile  Your laugh makes me laugh  Your eyes are enchanting  My feelings for you;they grow  They keep growing  They blossom like the flowers everyday  I have a girlfriend  I have a love. my little teenage love I dont know what to say  I just want to see you  Just know that what i speak is true And i have fallen deeply for you  Buh what can i do, if not love you I promise you dedication not violation of the promises made to you!                   

  Told her I was broken, forever lonely but she didn't listen  Said she loves me, said she will help me get back my feelings  It's day 335 and I still don't feel a thing  well I guess I should just tell, Told her we should meet  Told her she should move on, I just can't do this  We've been seeing almost a year, it's just no working Said she loves me, that she'll be patient and she'll keep waiting But she doesn't understand, the feelings aren't growing  I'm tired of the fake smiles, I wanna stop pretending The love is one-sided, it's only coming from your direction said her love us enough for the both of us, that's her perception I cannot continue faking, this is all deception  We sat quiet for a while, then Daimonds filled her eyes  "Oh My" where are my emotions, I cannot lie  Couldn't feel a thing, even with the tears in her eyes  Men I've gone so cold, frozen from the inside Told her they is someone who could show ...

D o you know how it is to be loved?  It’s one of the most beautiful feelings in the world.  Absolutely everything seems better since you appeared in my life! I realized that you are better than best, and nobody needs me except you Always be with you is all I want Look into your eyes, hold you gently by the hand, kiss and say how much I love you My love is getting stronger every day and it's harder to be without you,  because my life only makes sense when you're with me. You are forever in my heart. Listen up i’ll be the warrior to fight for our us We’ll fly together, fly higher than the eagle I’ll be your wall and shield you from harm I’ll take all the pains, and kiss them away You’ll be my queen in the kingdom of my heart And then I’ll be the king, so we’ll never be apart And for all of the times, I will leave you never I'm writing this little write up For a very special lady,Always and forever, She'll always be my baby  I dream of holding her and being with her In ...

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W hat do you think, what's it gonna be  How do you feel, what do you wanna be Every body be questioning, saying they're advising me  Telling me things I should do and what I shouldn't feel  Well hol'up and listen to what I feel and I think  I'm scared to make a bad impression so I go hide in the dark  Well, I feel I'm alone and no one loves me and it's hard  Sometimes I just wanna disappear and hide from these tracks I hate with when people ask me how I feel  What exactly do you want me to say, what do you wanna hear  That I feel miserable  Or that I feel pitiful  That I feel rejected Or that I feel unwanted  that I feel I am worthless Or that sometimes I feel so restless  That I don't feel respected  Or that I don't feel protected  That I feel from the inside that I am dead  Or that how I talk to someone and still get neglected Looking at the mirror but I'm not the one reflected  Even my therapist said I ...

I   gave her my heart, now it's in a billion              pieces I don't know but every since then everything has been opaque  Now I sit and wonder, alot of questions in my mind When did I become so numb When did I loose my self  When did I become so lost When did I become so cold Where is the person that I know  I feel paralyzed, I no longer feel things  That I know I should feel  Where is the real me, I'm lost and kills me  I stood there and felt how everything I believed in fade away I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen My heart is now in so much pain. My tears are falling like pouring rain. I can no longer sleep a full night. I can no longer fight. What happened to forever? I guess forever happened in your mind, never She left, and my feelings left too  I'm looking for my self , ...

M y life's full of bad days, from a young age  Been looking for the real me, its almost 280 days  Now I sit around thinking about the old fun days  Then when "I love you" were the last words I say when the smiles were real, but now it's all fake  I miss the days when I'd easily forget things  Enjoying the time and not over thinking my life  Not wondering if am a person someone could like  Not going with negative thoughts on my mind  When I believed I worth a number of things  When I never had to wonder about who I should be  The days when happiness was in my reach  Look what has happened to me  Numb eversince my heart broke into pieces  Stand in front of the mirror like who is this? Grew emotions but I learnt to mask it Numb to the winter,Numb to the sun Numb to the pain of a lost loved Numb to the laughter,Numb to the cheer Numb to all the happiness i hear Numb to the memories,numb to the care Numb to everything that mak...

Walking on my own and I saw a Shadow pass me by  It wasn't an ordinary shadow that passed my side I turned and I saw my favorite hero the batman  Full of excitement I followed, we weren't so far apart  He walked into the crowd and I couldn't believe my eyes  People came to take pictures, he pushed them aside  Things he said to children well it was alarming Things he did that night as a hero was just   shaming  tried to turn my face but couldn't look away, t'was a train wreck  Things he said to people, well it was shameless I offered to help but he said he was just too broken for saving Nothing I could say was going to change things  I barely recognized him at all  I tried to close my eyes but I just has to see this all  He stood at the top of a hill and started to take off his bat suits  "I gave my all for love, as I hope and I wished that it was true" "All my plans and all my time wasted" "because she said she loved me, ...

  I made a friend! When I was so little I think Around the third grade  Everyday I'd run home from school to see my friend  When nights were cold, I know I had my friend We spent Hollidays at my place till we left We bought so many things,We had so much fun together  We planned our future together for a forever Then I left for college in September and we wept  One day, momma came visiting with my friend  Happiness overwhelming as I cried and welcomed my friend  Wonderful as I saw and had fun with my friend Joy as my friend stayed and my mom left  Lovely catching up things between I and my friend Heartbroken as I watched my friend bein torn into peices and shreds My Friend I built with a plastic and a couple of pen  Marked my initials on the feet my friend  He wasn't just a toy but my only friend A bucket full I cried as I buried my best and only friend Built no one else because he was my irreplaceable Friend We thought we'd be friends fo...