Eventually, she left.

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 I remember when I wrote "message to my lover" 

and I told her I'd never leave her

I still remember the happiness when we were together

 everyday I'll reminisce on every happy memory we had 

give cute smiles to the momeries  that are sad 

funny when I remember how I stare at you from a distance 

funny how I don't want to loose the bruises you left behind 

a thousand times I said too much and more

 but everything I said was to let you know my love 

I am used to being someone you love 

everyday the scares will go deeper and hurt more

 I can count the days but it feels like decades since you left 

I won't lie, I can't find my happiness and rest

 no one hurt you and would love you like I do

 I spent everyday in fear of loosing you maybe

 you're happier, my friends say I will feel the same too 

the best feelings I had were with you

 you left. I feel I'm falling deeper in the water

 everyday the water gets colder

I lost my self loving you, I know now all I have is my self alone.





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